I didn’t drink alcohol this week. I almost had a drink on a date night but decided it wasn’t worth it.
Quitting smoking has been much more challenging and I can’t say I’ve succeeded yet but I made progress this week. My consumption reduced and on at least two days I didn’t smoke at all. Next week will be another step on the path.
I’ve driven to and from Denver more times than I can count this week. It’s exhausting but also probably the best paying job I’ve ever had. Some of the clients have been interesting to converse with which makes it a little easier for me.
My girlfriend was visiting from New Years Eve until Thursday so I decided to prioritize my time with her when I was not driving, which meant very little time at the studio this week.
After being “married to work” for the last decade or two it has been nice taking time for myself and my relationship. We went snowboarding together and enjoyed an incredible Omakase Sushi dinner at Oskaki’s in Vail. On Wednesday I made the ultimate sacrifice and went to Summit County to ride Keystone because her family was visiting and it was my first chance to meet her dad. I hate Summit County for so many reasons but mainly because I’m a Vail snob. Also, I broke my hand years ago riding Breckenridge and avoid going back at almost all costs.
We had some fun laps with her sister, nephew and father even though it was crowded and icy. Her dad even took us out the back bowl hike and we crushed a tree run together. After a few hours on the hill we made our way to the bnb where her dad made steaks and potatoes for dinner. It felt good to be present for a change, and to not be distracted with work.
I’m feeling grateful for the time I got to spend with my girlfriend and her family this week.
I also started therapy this week, which I’ve wanted and needed for a long time. It was challenging for me to take the step, primarily due to my schedule and obligations and lack of free time. Fortunately, I have found a therapist that can be flexible with my schedule and available to help me work through the challenges I face as an artist, a business owner, and simply a human.
I’m committed to making improvements in my life this year in ways that I have been wanting to grow for a long time. It isn’t easy for me to make changes, as I’m a creature of habit.
As I mentioned in last week’s blog, I couldn’t do this without my support team. My parents have been completely behind me through this time of transition. My brother has also been helpful. My girlfriend couldn’t be more supportive. I have a few friends that I talk on the phone with a few times a week. Over the last few months they have made themselves available to me at almost any time I reach out. I wouldn’t be here without my team.
For as long as I can think back, I have struggled with anxiety. This manifests in my addictions to substances, in my biting my nails, and in other ways. I’m finally addressing these issues and others head on.
I’ll spend some time snowboarding this week, and hopefully make some time for the torch. If you’re waiting on a call back or a response from me, please remind me or follow up with me. My life is already a lot different this year than it has been in the past, and I’m still adjusting to all the changes.
I appreciate everyone who has been tuned into my journey. I’ll continue to share more over the coming weeks. I’m still in love with my studio and my business, but I’m needing to create a little space so I can come back better and stronger. Sometimes space can be good. Thank you for being patient with me, and for supporting the vision.
Enjoy your Sunday,
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On Sundays I reflect.